Barking at the moon

I have no idea what phase the moon is in at the moment. Recently the nights have been heavily clouded and rain has run its tears down my window pane. I’ve not seen her for days.

Is she waxing? Waning? Half? Full?

She makes me howl.

She makes me weep.

She casts her glow across my sleeping body, studying me without my consent.

She wakes me in the night and we lie together, barely touching but palpably connected.

Until she slips from me.

Deserting me again.

And I start the day alone.

Where does she go?

To comfort another lover? On the other side of the world?

I miss seeing her face and feeling her cool touch.

I miss studying her, observing her shape and judging her mood.

And yet she never truly leaves me.

She is within me.

Tugging at me.

Filling my breasts and wetting my cunt.

She is relentless.

She gives me no respite.

Even as I sleep.

She comes for me again, and again, and again.

And I come for her: again and again and again.

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  1. One of my partners and I have a long-standing love triangle with the moon. He lives far away from me, and the position of the moon is a constant point of discussion between us. She has become an integral and well-loved part of our courtship. Your words here are beautiful. I can’t wait to share them with him.

    • sexualself

       /  June 16, 2012

      Thanks Heather, “a love triangle with the moon” totally sums up my feelings too. Oh and another friend shared this on Twitter – thought you might like it too: “Blot out the moon, pull down the stars. Love in the dark, for we are the dark.” ― Jean Rhys

  2. I know that feeling of wondering where she’s gone, why haven’t I seen her in what seems like weeks. Thank you for this.

  3. Nikki and I nominated your blog for the One Lovely Blog Award, because we think you’re beautiful inside and out–just like your blog. Hugs for the amazing and inspiring things you write about. xoxo

    • sexualself

       /  June 22, 2012

      Wow! Thank you Nikki and Heather. You know the admiration is reciprocal – you two are amazing and always an inspiration xoxo

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